Fat chance on the new me part! lol I'm happy being me. I'm happy with where I'm at in my life and the people I surround myself with. I'm not changing, so don't worry.
I don't normally make New Years resolutions but this year I've decided that I should try harder at some things. I need to try harder at expressing myself. Not in a mean way, but just make my opinions, feelings, and thoughts heard. Amongst my friends last night we got to talking about how drama has slowly crept into our circle of friends. I loathe drama! They commented on how wonderful it is that I stay neutral (my new nickname is Switzerland now) while all the drama circles around. I don't want any part of it, so I say nothing. This part of me won't change. I don't want the drama around me in anyway. Anyways, I told them that I looked at it as a weakness in me not to put my two cents in. Not to stir up the drama, just to put my point out there and they can take it for whatever they want. I thought them voicing their opinions on the matters was a strength that I should find. They said a big fat NO to that! They told me I was stronger than them for staying mum and not judging anyone by rumors. They wanted to be more like me and just ignore it all. For this girl with low self esteem, it almost made me cry to hear that. I know that I am strong in most aspects of my life, but not when it comes to making friends and being involved. My life is pretty plain Jane, so my way of thinking is "who wants to hang around me?" Not that my group of friends have ever made me feel that way, it's just the low self esteem kicking in. So me trying harder stems from that little conversation. I know it's not going to happen over night and I know it may not happen at all. But at least I'm thinking about it and going to try it. This could lead to BIG things for me! lol
I know I'm a good person and a true friend, it was just a nice thing to hear and a nice way to bring in the New Year.
3 comments:
I love the fact that you are Switzerland...that is a very admirable trait to have. I also loathe drama and am so glad to have all of that (and those type of people) out of my life.
I can see how you would want to voice your opinion though...I think you can still do that and remain neutral (not taking sides). Opinions are good...drama is bad. ;)
...and you ARE a great friend that ANYONE would LOVE to be around. Glad we've been friends for so long!
I don't normally make resolution either. But this year my body isn't "bouncing" back like it did with the first kid. I do love this post!
I think that is awesome! I used to have SO MUCH DRAMA in my life, mostly because I expected people to be just like me (blech) and if they weren't I just didn't want them in my life.... Yah, this ALWAYS caused drama because people have FEELINGS..hello! Anyway, I think you are awesome and I was sad when I couldn't remember your blog URL.
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